Sunday, May 30, 2010

Another year older

Well I survived another birthday. Despite what my outdated info on this blog says i'm now 52. I still don't feel old really, most of the time. When life hits me which it is doing more lately as you can tell from the previous post then I feel old but I would if I was 20 also.

I had to spend the day alone because Connie has to be in Orlando for several months for work. We're just so glad that they found even temp assignment for her for a few months that neither of us minds. Besides I think the stress of the whole mess was starting to have us getting on each other's nerves.

I did go to play poker and the other players went along with my plan that I get to win on my birthday so that was nice. LOL maybe I'll tell 'em it's my birthday all the time. Anyway, yes, I'm still playing poker when I can find a decent game and still doing well. I think my play has gotten better.

My overall feeling lately is that life still sucks but it does have good parts, they're just hard to find. I think I'll go back to Azeroth for a's sort of like Cheers...a place where everybody knows your name and life doesn't suck too bad.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Thirteen Months Later

Actually I thought it had been longer since I posted here than the thirteen months, almost to the day, that it has been. A lot has gone on.

I took a foray into Facebook and found I don't like it and that it doesn't suit my needs.

I also got hooked on World of Warcraft. I can thank my son for that, he's the one who finally talked me into trying it. I absolutely love it. It's been a bit of a lifesaver recently too. It's one of those things though that I suspect you either understand or you don't and if you don't you're sure i'm nuts. Of course that has never bothered me at all....I know I'm nuts.

I need an outlet right now and facebook was too public. This has the disadvantage of being something that Connie reads only I doubt she looks for it and I cut off having it mailed out to anyone. If anyone reads it they will have had to look for it. That is perfect.

A bit ago Connie's second project in six months got cut off with no notice by Mr. Obama who is swiftly gutting the defense department. Still think he's not dangerous? Think again. Anyway her company does not seem to really be helping her with re-deployment, they say the words but there are no discernable actions behind them.

The thing I'm upset about is that I see our retirement going totally down the tubes and there is almost literally nothing I can do about it. I always said I wanted to save as much as it would take to avoid being one of these old geezers working bagging groceries. I was under the impression we were doing that. Turns out I should have kept a closer eye on our finances as Connie had different plans than the ones I thought we had. Of course there are all sorts of things she doesn't tell me. Ok so I get upset sometimes but it's just because I care and besides I find out anyway and then get more upset so the logic there escapes me.

Anyway I see, in the not too distant future, me bagging groceries, figurtively if not literally. That is IF I can even find a job.

Right now this journey to find happiness is on a major detour headed nowhere fast. Life sucks right now and frankly if it ended now that would be ok with's been making me think....

And now that I've vented I'll sign off for....well who knows how long...maybe forever...hope ya'll are doing better than I am, I know lots of people aren't and I'm sorry for that.